about the impact of that on your famil ? :, , :, , , family? it was. it was very strange- family? it was. it was very strange- i family? it was. it was very strange. i have family? it was. it was very strange. i have lost - family? it was. it was very strange. i have lost peoplel family? it was. it was very - strange. i have lost people before. when you lose someone in your family, you stick together, you talk about them, you surround yourself with people. 0bviously, about them, you surround yourself with people. obviously, i have never lost anybody that close before. there was a time when i thought i needed human contact, needed to be around people. but! needed human contact, needed to be around people. but i could not be. i could not do the normal things you want to do when you are grieving, surrounding yourself with people, go away a few days to recalculate your head, i could not do any of that. it was bizarre. neighbours brought me flowers and cards but they would leave them