Throughout this trial, we heard about how she wrote a condolence note to one of the families, she had taken a photo of that and kept it on her phone. we also heard she had searched for them online and she made comments to them after the deaths about their babies. and we also heard how she washed one of the babies afterwards and we heard in the impact statements about how upsetting this was for the parents. and the judge went on to talk about how she had a fascination with the parents of these babies. he mentioned these notes found at her home, handwritten notes the police found when they search our property which she said things like, i am evil, i did this. she had the word hate in capital letters written on them and talked about how the world would be better off without me. and also, how they had found the handover notes from her shifts in the hospital in this neonatal unit at her home in thejudge the hospital in this neonatal unit at her home in the judge said that he was satisfied t