not, it s i don t know it makes you feel like an outsider. and i don t think that will be the case for a pair, a white player to be fair. we got to a position where enough is enough and why do we need to keep facing this season and season how does it make you feel sterile? it s hard because we don t want we work quite closely with the cricket board and different organisations and i like to think we have a really good relationship with them and didn t want to upset anyone in the all of this game and we all want to play this game and we all want to play this game and i think there was that certain fair this game and i think there was that certainfair of if this game and i think there was that certain fair of if we do make a real fuss about this would there be any backlash towards us and our club?