what she was settling with from the outset. my dreams were calling at night. i dreamt of camilla the whole time. obsessed with camilla, totally. she adored prince charles. she wanted to be part of the royal family, to be a credit to the monarchy. she wanted to show the world, and she wanted to show camilla, look who i am, look what he s got. the true diana came out. she has a backbone. she knows she s being seen by camilla. i m about to marry the future king of england. diana frances, wilt thou have this man to thy wedded husband? i have made it. i m here. you re there. i won. you lost. on monday we d gone to st. paul s for our last rehearsal, and that s when the camera lights were on full. a crowd of about 3,000 have built up. their enthusiasm unmistakable. prince charles was so relaxed, he nearly came to grief on the top step. and when it was over, prince charles clasped lady diana s hand reassuringly and unaffectedly. she was photogenic. she was young
it s a process. so what your heart wants isn t the same as what the system wants for you. it was courtiers and people in suits. life was much more structured in a way that was alien to her. but diana wasn t actually left completely alone. camilla parker bowles left diana a note saying, such exciting news, love to see the engagement ring. that s a real, like, mafia thug move. that s so mean girls, it s unbelievable. that s a power move right there. in diana s own words, she told me that any marriage prince charles might have made could never be as strong as the relationship he had with camilla. and that s what she was battling with from the outset. but she has something that camilla doesn t have, which is her youth, her beauty, her sparkle, her charisma.