Something that is not selfexpression, that is the ropbl root to really improving your life. you have to love yourself and believe that someone else does. i know it sounds pat, but it s true. the money will just get you further into darkness in if you don t know who you are. martha: my mind goes directly to the man singing bohemian rapsody in the back of the police car. you ve got jack whitaker who won $315 million back in 2002. he had a tragic story. he was robbed of over $500,000 that he had in cash, if you can believe it, while he was at a strip club, he was carrying around that kind of money. his family members were later found dead. he was sued by caesars in atlantic city. he bounced checks to them.