no, i didn t want to leave him and i didn t want this to be the reality. i didn t want to have the man i was in love with i know you don t come back from that. it broke my heart. i had to leave him. dana: amber heard taking the stand for the first time yesterday recalling her stormy and abusive relationship with actor johnny depp. she will be back on the stand any minute as she defends herself in a defamation case. i m dana perino. bill: i m bill hemmer. something else yesterday. i m bill hemmer, riveting testimony. amber heard describing a whirl wind romance when she was 22 years old and harrowing details of physical abuse saying johnny depp s personality could change depending on what drug he was taking at the time. she also said depp called his abusive side the monster. that was a quote.