Frustrated im so frustrated. Need to tell boom thank his dream come true his own cafe in berlin his cafe is a favorite among artists in berlin locals and foreigners alike need al has been living in the german capital for 8 years he became a german citizen 2 years ago new delhi was born in palestine and grew up in the gaza strip. I was. When i was a boy in the gaza strip i used to dream of having my own cafe on the other side i wanted to open one by the beach in gods own but thats not possible with the situation as it is there and theres money i didnt know my life would take me to berlin but now heres bobo which means nightingale to go. Needlework todd to make a new home for himself in berlin but the situation in gaza has him increasingly concerned. As think now all i can think about is seeing my family again the next war is coming to gaza and if something happens to them before i can see them that would destroy me. I can tell that my family isnt doing well that they need me and my strength and i want to spend time with my family and be there for them in that manner for me that south of london on the run planned. Out of worry for his family new dell made a dramatic decision. From one day to the next he sold his cafe. All he wants to do now is see his family in gaza. Either so what a shame if you come back one day right thats why god is god when the sunday times come that let me give you a hard lesson. Over the past 10 years new doubts parents intensively lived through 3 wars in the gaza strip now the next conflict seems to lie ahead. In 2007 new dow lost a leg as a result of the conflict between israel and the palestinians. He was working as a camera man when hes car was struck presumably by an israeli rocket. The car veered off the hill and his right leg was shattered. The accident happened at 10 in the morning they sent me to the Medical Center in jerusalem i needed surgery right away and that was impossible in gaza run for. At the time of need all work for an International News agency. They organized his treatment at the israeli hospital. But this new ferguson will never forget how the head doctor explained my options. They said my leg was destroyed so badly it couldnt be fixed now that might come about the spines and they could leave it the way it was but i wouldnt be able to walk anymore with them this time and id have to spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Or i could have my leg amputated and then use a prosthetic and it was entirely my decision. And then i was struck speech was so i was lying in bed and i heard everything so i told him the 2nd option. Up to inspire. Us i dont feel like i have limitations i enjoy my life more than most people i mean look at it its pretty cool. I wanted to be able to stand on my own 2 feet and lead my life because that wouldnt have been possible in gaza so i came to germany. That was in 2010 a fellowship allowed no doubt to start a new life in germany upside down just yet i put a lot of time and energy into understanding the mentality of people here the focus here. The mission here in. Berlin is now my 2nd home. Now new delhi is saying goodbye to his 2nd time hes not sure if and when hell be back. But thats the best way to fall. But when i fall i miss me i dont get hurt. So. Thats my im not sure whether to pack my winter clothes. Or just my summer ones. He doesnt know how long hell be away 3 weeks 3 months 3 years anythings possible. He sold his cafe but hes only someplace his apartment for a few weeks its fun so that i cant take it all. At 5 the next morning he takes a taxi to the airport. My heart. Im getting more and more anxious. A war thats worth it. In theory only a few hours of travel time separate nidal from his family in gaza. The shortest route from germany to gaza is to fly into tel aviv and then drive to the air is crossing after the Palestinian Uprising began new regulations were imposed in 2000 now palestinians need a special permit to cross the checkpoint and then nearly impossible to get thats why nidal is flying to amman jordan from there he plans to cross into the west bank then continues through israel in till he reaches gaza. Or come to agree not a commercial of the. 5 pm until. Theres no problem in jordan he enters with his german passport then he goes to buy a few gifts for his family. Then he heads to the border with israel. That. Hell 1st need to pass through the jordanian and then the Israeli Border control which. Is in the mouth of a half an hour will be at the border to palestine i hope we get into day for this. And we have to hurry lets go so. The. Needle has a german passport will israel recognise it unless him pass since hes palestinian by birth will they require a special permit to travel through. Israel he applied for a permit just in case. On the jordanian side theres no problem they let him through with his german passport then he takes a short passed ride through the no mans land to get to the israeli side. The lights of the city of jericho in the west bank flicker in the distance but 1st he has to pass through israels Border Control after a wait of 3 hours hes told that israel wont recognize his german passport and the israeli Authorities Say they never received his application for a permit to pass through the country. Need out has to go back to jordan. The city i dont understand this as i just always comes. Back in amman friends take him in. But. I was on a. Honest and. From there he tries to obtain permission to travel to gaza but things are looking good but no one can guarantee that he will be allowed back out. On the back because of. The the mother argument theyre all saying youre returning the care if youre returning go to cuba so look i keep hearing that word in hebrew has been happening now in arabic to the obvious some of the around us. That means he might find himself stuck in gaza indefinitely i love that islam was the clue. I was fairly indeed i have 2 choices. I can sacrifice my freedom and honestly in my entire life. And take that risk and so i can see my family thats good for our own so weighs in on my end of the militancy. Then i might add up trapped there. With im far or i can choose my freedom from enough i had to turn back. And not see my family. Those are my 2 choices. A short time later need to have receipts word that israel has cleared him for entry hes told to go to the border. I was going i presented my german passport yesterday they stamped it and wrote in my palestinian 1000 or less a month being on the med that means i could never enter this region as a german i know isnt gonna. Stop the fun freedom its absurd and noble in europe when you want to visit your family and the only decision is do you want to fly or travel by rail and. If so i have this past season but i worked really hard for hour by the car on the slab i pay my taxes and they said but this passport is worth nothing here that the if any other german can enter and exit the region with no problem complain notice. That it upsets me. Hes back at the Border Crossing. As he was told israel has given him permission to transit dot they want him to board a bus directly to gaza. Most nicely want us to get on this bus but i wont. So i wont enter. Hes afraid that if you boards the boss he wont be allowed to leave gaza. Hed be stuck far away from his life in berlin. No one here can or will give him a guarantee that hell be permitted to leave gaza or again in. The. New das conversation with israels Border Control gets a bit hated it times. But if you know. You want to. Call. One of the board offices is also from germany is only in israel to complete his military service dont want to. You have to understand. You have to understand me to. These families you wont let me out no ones looking you up yes you are turned off the camera. Just frustrated im so frustrated. Newtown returns to amman jordan. In germany hed already suspected that visiting his family in gaza wouldnt be easy. But he wasnt prepared for how upset hed be. Persisted across israel so afraid of the. Bus is what is so dangerous about. Me but im not allowed to go to my own territory. Ive been in germany for years im just coming back to visit my family and i should be able to do that freely i cant understand. From israels point of view they have good reason for their stance. Cooper which was the former head of the civilian branch of color get an i. D. F. Unit thats responsible for issuing travel permits the palestinians through israel. Lets not forget the gaza strip is controlled by a Terror Organization hamas ok it changes all the reality for us other israelis and for palestinians also i understand that the people are caught in between and fortunately at the end they are the ones who are paying the price of terror all on one hand and israeli policy against dato entity if he is inside his travel in gaza do you know what hes doing there can we know what who is doing what to what hes doing there. Ok thats why they start to understand. That somebody from their organizations in gaza like hamas Islamic Jihad isis are already in gaza somebody met him somebody is trying to convince him to do something somebody is trying to use it. To check those things it takes a little bit that. Theres a lot of mistrust on both sides and that doesnt look set to change any time soon. Things that might be commonplace under other circumstances like visiting your family become an insurmountable hurdle. Needles parents dont know yet that hes visited one take place. There are only 2 ways into gaza one is through the rafa Border Crossing in egypt thats usually closed the other is through the israeli crossing areas. Journalists diplomats Aid Organization staff and palestinians with a special permit are allowed to enter. Once it becomes clear that needle wont be able to visit our camera Team Continues without him that way nidal is family will at least get the gifts he purchased even if he cant be there himself. Around 2000000 people live in gaza and life is difficulty. In 2007 the militant Islamist Hamas group took control of gaza israel and egypt established an economic blockade corruption and mismanagement on the palestinian side have exacerbated the situation. About half the Palestinian People rely on United Nations food deliveries. To. He tells family live in a quiet area to the south of gaza city. His parents and where him are hopeful bill had 6 sons 5 daughters and 18 grandchildren theyve been looking forward to visit. But instead of a hunk coming i have to make do with a telephone call. From the year. When im with the family and. We could hardly wait needles been gone for years and we were so happy when he said he visited. He checked in with me every day and told me he was going to visit maybe today maybe tomorrow. Now ive given up hope. He said this was his last try for now. It didnt work i feel terrible i think its so painful. Whats going to be. Life in germany we didnt want it was this life because of. This. There is no choice in this boy this is what. We call the meat. Of the food issue. He says. He can see what is. Being shown the. War 7 was 5 years the kids are a welcome surprise. New tells older brother jamal has 2 children the youngest is a year and a half old newtown has only of this. And him in pictures. Dalia is needles younger sister shes the only one who isnt married yet and lives with her parents. Out of the dolls 10 brothers and sisters 7 have University Degrees but none of them have an income. This sense of futility about the future is one reason why so many people want to leave gaza. Needle loves our food in gaza he especially loves it when i cook. He doesnt like it when the plates are empty and there are numbers of mother but all that is not going on. Mother is the only member of the family whos been given a permit to visit him in berlin offered to sponsor her permanently but she told him an old tree copy operation. Dalia is just finishing school and for him to go outside just to remove. The situation here so difficult to count 3. No person study no ones going to study an altercation. And every few years there is another war. So as a good thing that he wasnt here. A way of the bad things i was the worst. I love to see him. Achieving his dreams and do the things so he won. And. Now everything he won just the. Memory. Thats how Jamal Littles oldest brother sees things too why its also they didnt come to the gulf hes asked you all. Will be ignored as the president says. Enough in the spirit seeing him know. The prison is a gift the money all over think this was a gift. Its not being as. All were used. To seeing him we miss him since he said the years of all the really sad search to know most of us feeling falls off being me. What if. Many dream of leaving and seen the world but only a handful do. To most of the residents of gaza the reality is that they are stuck here the only way out is a permit from israel or egypt. Those permits can be applied for here at the Palestinian Civil Committee after an initial review they pass on selected applications to israel. Ordinary applications of processed on the 1st floor. Urgent cases for people who need medical treatment go up stairs whenever tensions rise between israel and hamas fewer permits to travel outside gaza are approved. Is male carter but is deputy head of the palestinian agency. He has access to nidal file. Would. We received a permit for him to return but he was afraid he wouldnt be able to leave dancers so he stayed in jordan. In principle its possible to get an exit permit but its very difficult entering isnt easy either amend the homecoming which once youre in gaza you cant count until the Israeli Security forces clear you but one nobody knows how long that will take but they could be a month 3 months or maybe youll never get an exit permit. That might. Israel says the lengthy process is necessary to ensure security. For israel its all a question of security for the bull family its a deeply personal matter. They just want to be able to see nidal. Hes now rich and to 1000000000. 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