live, but it was when i stopped talking and i started thinking, you know, they say the idle mind is the devil s workshop. so when my mind went idle and i wasn t trying to talk to anybody else, i wasn t talking on live, i wasn t talking because i talked to my mom while i was there, i talked to my pastor, i talked to my sister, i talked to one of my friends here in paducah. and one of my coworkers, who was outside at the time when this happened. he was in a van and his van got thrown all over, and i had been calling him, because i knew he was outside, because i was thinking that the tornado had threw him to missouri or something, so i was freaking out, because i didn t know where he was, and he ended up calling me, like, are you okay, and i m like, oh, my god, i m so glad you re okay, you know? and so, just but the times when i didn t talk to anybody was the time when i went into complete panic mode, so i just had to keep myself talking and keep kind of not think about