biology class, we had the usu disection of fetal pigs. dogs, cats. i suppose it could have turn into a normal hobby like tax determiny, but it feared off into this. why? i don t know. all i know is that i wanted to see what the insides of these animals looked like. was there some pleasure in the cutting open of the animal? yes, there was. no sexual pleasure, but it s hard to describe. a sense of power? a sense of control? i suppose that s a good way of putting it, yeah. i can sort of see a fascination for wanting to see or for looking at the insides of animals, say for the first time. after you did it one time, what