and we were suddenly brian and jerry and we stayed brian and jerry until the day he died. together, they discovered liverpool s gay scene. brian took me to my first club. he dressed me up and back combed my hair. and somehow we managed to get in. and someone did that with a. with a little shutter to let us in. and we were in and as soon as we went in, we just dived on the dance floor, and never looked back. it felt like there wasn t anything we couldn t do. it felt like the, you know, the world was waiting, basically. obviously, later in that period, quite a lot changed. suddenly we started to hear, i think was in the pink paper or whatever paper it was that there was this this disease killing americans. and we couldn t think that there was a disease just killing gays. you know, you just didn t think that. and then suddenly it happened. there was that look of, you know, thinness, that sort of.
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quite a lot changed. certainly we started to hear and think was in the pink paper or whatever paper it was that there was this this disease killing americans. and we couldn t think that there was a disease just killing gays. you know, you just didn t think that. and then suddenly it happened. there was that look of thinness, that sort of. i remember being really sort of overwhelmed by that. everything changed. do you remember when brian told you that he found out he was hiv positive? it was incredibly strange because i saw him and i immediately knew it was positive. i looked at me and ijust looked at him and we stopped being the brian and jerry we always were. we immediately stopped being young. brian died aged 29, one year before life saving treatment for hiv would become widely available.
it was a very different era where people didn t understand eating disorders very well at all. but he actually went one further than that. he made cruel jokes. there s so much shame attached to the condition, it s pretty much the worst thing you could say to someone battling that kind of disease. it s her coping mechanism. she feels with her bulimia she can control something in her life. so much of the attention around her was on her appearance. her thinness was often celebrated. and it just continued into a really damaging cycle. the royal family does not know how to deal with this because bulimia centers around emotions. so she s alone and she s longing for somebody to love her and to support her. james hewitt was this very dashing, dreamy 28-year-old
that something had gone out of the marriage. charles did not understand her eating disorder. i think it was frustrating and confusing to him. it was a very different era where people didn t understand eating disorders very well at all. but he actually went one further than that. he made cruel jokes. charles would still say, oh, is that going to there s so much shame attached to the condition. it s pretty much the worst thing you can say to someone battling that disease. it s her coping mechanism. she feels with her bulimia that she can control something in her life. so much of the attention around her was on her appearance. her thinness was often celebrated. and it just continued into a really damaging cycle. the royal family does not know how to deal with this