Decision was really the really led to my contributed to my healing the most. Keeping her, which a lot of people thought that that would be the opposite, being able to i look at this beautiful young lady every single day but actually was the source of my greatest healing. Ainsley thats beautiful. Thank you. Ainsley when they put that baby in your arms, a mothers love is just something so powerful. Yes. Ainsley will you use this as part of your platform . Yes. Its a part of my story. So im an official speaker on the Speakers Bureau for the rain organization, the largest antisexual violence. Rape Abuse Incest National network. Affiliates my story. I was also assaulted at the age of 4. I had the opportunity to use my voice and to share my story. The first time i actually shared my story was in the New York Post publicly when i first competed in a pageant three years ago for miss new york u. S. A. And that allowed me to be vulnerable and to provide healing for myself when i shared my story