had yorkie and cliff , and i just burst. dummy. you used to see them and you used to think, oh, god, you know, and you used to be afraid to speak to them sometimes, because you just especially steve s friends, used to be afraid to sort of speak to them, cos i used to think, oh, what i say? you know. it was hard on all of them. some of them suffered terrible ptsd when they came back. you know, it was awful. when i wrote letters to all- the fathers of the guys that i knew, the young guy from cardiff, - bless him, another from cardiff, his name was griff 22, griffiths, he was from cardiff, my batman was killed, a young boy of 19. - so, yeah, it was a difficult time. it killed my father, definitely. i mean, he was only 56 when he died, you know. he was still very young himself. so, but. ..there we are.
his sister was anxiously awaiting news at the welsh guards barracks, where she lived. when we were kids, steve and i used to fight like cat and dog, but when he joined the army, and of course then when i went into quarters, i mean, he used to come to me for sunday dinner and things like that, so i used to see him all the time, you know. obviously, as news started filtering through, everything started being very, very subdued. it was a horrible atmosphere once people started knowing. i didn t know until i phoned home that my brother had died. i don t think it sunk in. nobody could believe it had happened. as the task force headed home, many remained in the falklands, dealing with the aftermath of war. and bad luck remained with the welsh guards. what we did underestimate was the numbers, because we had no idea until probably aboutjune i6, 17, when we re having to feed something like 13,000 to 15,000 argentine prisoners of war who were all down