came to sex. the sex wasn t loving. held down, felt violated, felt overpowered. and then on the other hand, sex might be withheld or used as a weapon by her as best she could. and although they didn t know it, according to borden, their son, michael was a casualty of their conjugal war. his bedroom was right adjoining their bedroom. young michael ross being a kind of witness to a form of rape, ongoing basis gets integrated into part of his development. no little boy sits down and says to himself, gee, when i grow up, do i want to be turned on by consenting behavior or do i want to be turned on by coercive and sadistic behaviors? psychiatrist fred berlin also studied ross for the defense team.
then he went to the car and he took out leslie shelley who was 14 years old i believe at the time. a very tiny girl. and he said to me that he was already in so far he didn t know what to do. he didn t want it then. made some comment like that. apologized to leslie shelley that he was going to have to kill her, and he said he was sorry, put her on her stomach and strangled her to death. well, the smallest one, leslie shelley has always bothered me more than the others. and i think it was because she was so small and she was so cooperative and i think it was because of the way she was killed was so close to the fantasies. that was the one that was it was like it was fantasy. how can michael ross kill so easily? and how can he speak so matter of factly when recounting it all? the answer can be found at the
ross confessed to this murder and one other in new york state after he was caught. i started following women home, and i would get a thrill by them knowing that i was following them, that they would be scared and, you know, that gave me a thrill. and then it got to the point where i actually raped someone at cornell, and then the next person i actually raped and killed. but surprisingly, ross never seriously injured any of the women he knew. if he knew somebody, he might fantasize killing them and he might be rough. but they were relatively safe. they say what it is is that i can t hurt the person that i m with. it s called splitting. underneath it all, he s very dependent, needy and attached. i love that person. i need that person for my emotional wellbeing.
old, his job became the killing of the chicks. any weak or crippled chick had to be killed. so michael was the designated chicken killer. and how? my hands hurt from where i had strangled them. i always manually strangled them. he would wring their necks. if you look at his killing the women, young women, who incidentally he called chicks, their necks were wrung. they were all strangled. according to experts, abusing animals is common to many serial killers, but ross is a special case. killing was built into his upbringing. this is a 5-year-old, 6-year-old kid, that was his job.
i think to have remorse, to have true remorse, you have to have some empathy. i think his human feelings or his feelings of empathy, connecting to people in that way, to know what they re feeling, to feel what they re feeling, was beaten out of him and was humiliated out of him. i don t see them as they were when i killed them, and if you had stopped me like right afterwards and gave me like a composite drawing of like 12 pictures, you know, some blondes, brunettes, whatever, i wouldn t have been able to pick them out even immediately after i killed them. but the man who caught him strongly disagrees. he knew them by name. he followed his exploits in the newspaper. when he rattled off within that five seconds the names of these victims, he named them. he didn t just say this girl and this town or that girl in that town. but when he talks about killing wendy baribeault, ross still maintains he was out of control.