normal polygamist family but beneath the surface, some of those children were suffering in silence. one of my earliest memories is of him sexually abusing me. i was 4 or 5 years old and this is where my dad did it. i remember him telling me, you should never do this, and then he did it to me. he made me feel like i had done something bad. i remember father saying to me, becky, you re acting different toward me, and i remember feeling like i feel different towards you. now when i think about it, i relate it to the sexual abuse. what was it like for both of you living in this house with him knowing what he had done to you? i just thought that was a mistake.
myself i must be a very wicked person. becky confessed her brokenness to her father but he showed no mercy. he took away her eldest son and sent her childless to live in colorado with her sister and repent. we took pictures and i said i ll smile for this picture because this will be my funeral picture. i m going to kill myself. i am. there is nothing to live for. but then, becky s sister revealed something about their father that would change everything. one day my sister starts bawling and bawling and i said what s the matter? my sister said from the ages of about 8 to 17 he had sexually abused her. we both cried together. i thought i m not the only one molested. he s done it to her. it must be something that was in
good. like becky, tom recently left the flds and is also viewed as a traitor by his own father. he told the whole family i was a rank apostate and i did nothing to him. why exactly did you leave? i got sick of all the restrictions and after i left the church, i still believed warren is who he said he was and i had all the respect in the world for him but i finally got a lawyer and he put all the evidence in front of me. it disgusts me. becky, do you want to share anything with tom? he molested some of us when we were little and then, you know, my sister, she dealt with it constantly, so of course, we can t support him. yeah. i mean, to find out that s the
from his prison cell, the prophet dictated harsh new revelations that would affect everyone. he banned marriage, school, even toys. if the faithful didn t obey, they risked punishment and no one, not even warren s own kin were immune. in 2011, warren declared becky s husband an apostate, no longer in good standing with the church. he told becky to take her kids and leave. i thought, i can t do this because my boys love their father so much. we got to do with the prophet says. so i wiped away my tears and said okay, i ll start packing up. i didn t even give him a hug good-bye, i shook his hand and said thank you for all you ve done and left. do you know why he was cast out?
still home to the flds. even today, it s a place that warren tightly controls from prison. and becky wants to show me for herself. what are your thoughts right now as we embark upon this place where you used to live? on one hand, i don t want people to think i m out to get them or do something against them because that s what some people are going to think. i want to get the message across that things aren t how they seem.