the cameras were like that and now it's all on me. you know, so that was a very empowering feeling. but more than that, it was a springboard to the entertainment business, which i don't think i would have ever had or chosen if that hadn't happened to me. so, you know, you said if you had to go back as the person you are now, you wouldn't — why? i just don't want competition like that! i don't want to, now, at my age, i don't want to be judged for my body type, or if i can give a quick—witted answer in 60 seconds while the, you know, dong is going. there is complexities around pageants and they can be highly empowering, but there's a lot that needs to change for them to be that way. so, winning that pageant gave you the foot in the door, so to speak, in bollywood, but it wasn't immediate acceptance oi’ success. you know, it's an industry in which, even today, i would say, to a large extent, the notion of beauty has got to do with, you know, the colour of your skin,