time alone. my family's doing it with me. and i'm hurting them more than i'm hurting myself. they're out there missing me like crazy, especially my daughter. >> now only a few weeks away from his release date, gonzalez must not only try to stay out of trouble, he must also control his compulsion to cut. >> sometimes the physical pain wipes away the emotional pain, at least for the time being anyway. that's one reason. another reason is there might be a situation going on where we're trying to holler at the c.o. or sergeant and they want to ignore us. we cut ourselves and then we scream out there and say, i cut myself, i'm bleeding. then they hurry up and get back here. coming up, with his release only days away, rudy gonzalez cuts again. >> when i did that, oh, i got everybody's attention then, everybody in that [ bleep ] room wanted to talk to me. ♪ hush, little baby ♪ don't you cry ♪ soon the sun ♪ is going to shine ♪ [ male announcer ] toyota presents the prius family. ♪ walk if i want, talk if i want ♪