deuced the book, "a purpose-driven life to you." >> it actually did have a effect. for me, i needed an answer to that question. as a matter of fact, as i sats in churj that day, i began to thank god. i don't even nope why i'm here. i shouldn't be here. i'm not worthy of being here. i want my life to change, but i don't know how of. i'm in this place to where i just get up and do druggings. it's not because i want to, it's just a way of life. that's what i do to survive and i want to change. right about that time, the pastor said the church is going to be reading this book. if you want one, they're so and so many and if you don't have the money, just get one anyway. so i picked it up and started to read it. >> what made you pull it out and start reading it to brian nichols that night?