i had a networking project to figure out how to make more money or friends or things like that. it was just actually experiencing live, myself, and letting myself experience it. so i'm not forcing things. >> when i look at the event in sadona, i wonder how that happened. >> i think i know the answer to that question. it had to happen. because it was the only way i could experience, learn, and grow through the things that i have done. that's what i think is the reason for me. am i drinking the kool-aid?